by George Müller
May 9 1841
It has pleased the Lord to teach me a truth,
the benefit of which I have not lost, for more than fourteen
years. The point is this: I saw more clearly than ever that
the first great and primary business to which I ought to attend
every day was, to have my soul happy in the Lord.
The first thing to be concerned about was not
how much I might serve the Lord, or how I might glorify the
Lord; but how I might get my soul into a happy state, and how
my inner man might be nourished. For I might seek to set the
truth before the unconverted, I might seek to benefit believers,
I might seek to relieve the distressed, I might in other ways
seek to behave myself as it becomes a child of God in this world;
and yet, not being happy in the Lord, and not being nourished
and strengthened in my inner man day by day, all this might
not be attended to in a right spirit.
Before this time my practice had been, at least
for ten years previously, as an habitual thing, to give myself
to prayer, after having dressed myself in the morning. Now,
I saw that the most important thing I had to do was to give
myself to the reading of the Word of God, and to meditation
on it, that thus my heart might be comforted, encouraged, warned,
reproved, instructed; and that thus, by means of the Word of
God, while meditating on it, my heart might be brought into
experiential communion with the Lord.
I began therefore to meditate on the New Testament
from the beginning, early in the morning. The first thing I
did, after having asked in a few words the Lord’s blessing upon
his precious Word, was, to begin to meditate on the Word of
God, searching as it were into every verse, to get blessing
out of it; not for the sake of the public ministry of the Word,
not for the sake of preaching on what I had meditated upon,
but for the sake of obtaining food for my own soul. The result
I have found to be almost invariably this, that after a very
few minutes my soul has been led to confession, or to thanksgiving,
or to intercession, or to supplication; so that, though I did
not, as it were, give myself to prayer, but to meditation, yet
it turned almost immediately more or less into prayer.
When thus I have been for a while making confession
or intercession, or supplication, or have given thanks, I go
to the next words or verse, turning all, as I go on, into prayer
for myself or others, as the Word may lead to it, but still
continually keeping before me that food for my own soul is the
object of my meditation. The result of this is, that there is
always a good deal of confession, thanksgiving, supplication,
or intercession mingled with my meditation, and then my inner
man almost invariably is even sensibly nourished and strengthened,
and that by breakfast time, with rare exceptions, I am in a
peaceful if not happy state of heart. Thus also the Lord is
pleased to communicate unto me that which, either very soon
after or at a later time, I have found to become food for other
believers, though it was not for the sake of the public ministry
of the Word that I gave myself to meditation, but for the profit
of my own inner man.
The difference, then, between my former practice
and my present one is this: Formerly, when I rose, I began to
pray as soon as possible, and generally spent all my time till
breakfast in prayer, or almost all the time. At all events I
almost invariably began with prayer, except when I felt my soul
to be more than usually barren, in which case I read the Word
of God for food, or for refreshment, or for a revival and renewal
of my inner man, before I gave myself to prayer. But what was
the result? I often spent a quarter of an hour, or half an hour,
or even an hour, on my knees, before being conscious to myself
of having derived comfort, encouragement, humbling of soul,
etc., and often, after having suffered much from wandering of
mind for the first ten minutes, or a quarter of an hour, or
even half an hour, I only then began really to pray.
I scarcely ever suffer now in this way. For
my heart, first being nourished by the truth, being brought
into experiential fellowship with God, I then speak to my Father
and to my Friend (vile though I am, and unworthy of it) about
the things that He has brought before me in His precious Word.
It often now astonishes me that I did not sooner see this point.
In no book did I ever read about it. No public ministry ever
brought the matter before me. No private intercourse with a
brother stirred me up to this matter. And yet, now, since God
has taught me this point, it is as plain to me as anything,
that the first thing the child of God has to do morning by morning
is, to obtain food for his inner man.
As the outward man is not fit for work for
any length of time except we take food, and as this is one of
the first things we do in the morning, so it should be with
the inner man. We should take food for that, as every one must
allow. Now, what is the food for the inner man? Not prayer,
but the Word of God; and here again, not the simple reading
of the Word of God, so that it only passes through our minds,
just as water runs through a pipe, but considering what we read,
pondering over it, and applying it to our hearts. When we pray,
we speak to God. Now, prayer, in order to be continued for any
length of time in any other than a formal manner, requires,
generally speaking, a measure of strength or godly desire, and
the season, therefore, when this exercise of the soul can be
most effectually performed is after the inner man has been nourished
by meditation on the Word of God, where we find our Father speaking
to us, to encourage us, to comfort us, to instruct us, to humble
us, to reprove us.
We may therefore profitably meditate, with
God’s blessing, though we are ever so weak spiritually; nay,
the weaker we are, the more we need meditation for the strengthening
of our inner man. Thus there is far less to be feared from wandering
of mind than if we give ourselves to prayer without having had
time previously for meditation. I dwell so particularly on this
point because of the immense spiritual profit and refreshment
I am conscious of having derived from it myself, and I affectionately
and solemnly beseech all my fellow believers to ponder this
matter. By the blessing of God, I ascribe to this mode the help
and strength which I have had from God to pass in peace through
deeper trials, in various ways, than I had ever had before;
and after having now above fourteen years tried this way, I
can most fully, in the fear of God, commend it.
In addition to this I generally read, after
family prayer, larger portions of the Word of God, when I still
pursue my practice of reading regularly onward in the Holy Scriptures,
sometimes in the New Testament, and sometimes in the Old, and
for more than twenty-six years I have proved the blessedness
of it. I take, also, either then or at other parts of the day,
time more especially for prayer.
How different, when the soul is refreshed and
made happy early in the morning, from what it is when without
spiritual preparation, the service, the trials, and the temptations
of the day come upon one.